This season almost destroyed my passion for this sport. It started off with the rear bearing going on me mid corner while I was trying to regain my confidence from last year's high side. After that, every right turn I took caused me to get very vivid images of me crashing into a guard rail or going into a ditch. There was even a time where I hopped onto a curb while turning right because of that. I contemplated quitting this sport many many times because I could not shake off the fear of injuring myself again.
A friend of mine that was into CSCS time attacks came with me to all of my trackdays; every track day he was very supportive and kept telling me I'll get over the fear. On my last trackday in Shannonville during the 2nd last lapping session, he told me to stop pussying footing around the track because some laps I was fast and others I would go at a turtle pace. The next session I went out I had 2 good laps then ran off the track chasing a Ducati Panigale S whom I passed earlier but managed to pass me later lol
Couple days later a friend and I met up to do some ramping. Right before getting on a ramp, I started getting really fed up with myself telling others about how I crashed, how it was affecting my confidence, how I used to be faster, and giving reasons (rather than excuses) for why someone else was faster than me. As cheesy as this sounds, something snapped inside me that moment and I went balls out without any fear. When we stopped at the light coming off the hwy, my friend opened his visor and said "Welcome back!"
That was the best ride of this season. Can't wait to visit the tracks again next year!
